So tell me, if you knew that someone had just started Alcoholics Anonymous and was in the very difficult first stage of detox, would you crack open a beer in front of them and make a huge deal about how delicious and refreshing it was? Would you hold it under their nose and say things like "Wouldn't you like to have a sip? HAHA! Too bad you can't, because you have lack of control and can't drink in moderation! Loser!"
If you said that yes, you would do that, then you are an incredible asshole and you do not deserve to take up space on this earth with decent human beings. Please go find the other assholes and play a game of hide-and-go-fuckyourself.
I'm guessing that few, if any, of you said that you would behave in that manner. So why is it that people think it is cute and funny to behave that way toward someone who has issues with food?
I am trying very, very hard to improve my eating habits. I make bad decisions with food; I eat things that I know are counter to my goals. I even eat things that I know are going to cause me pain. I don't do these things because I'm stupid (I'm not), or even because I lack self-control (I don't). I do these things because I have an addiction, and it is as real and as severe an addiction as one to alcohol or drugs.
So why is it funny to taunt me when someone brings donuts to the office? Why is it funny to rave about how "I think I'd eat a piece of this cake even if I were on a diet, because it's soooo delicious"? Why is it such a hoot to see me struggle to stay at my desk and not get up and slice off a piece of that cake? Why don't you just shut the fuck up and eat your goddamn cake?
I haven't made any progress with the Christmas Dress Challenge. I finally got the motivation to make a plan, and stick to it. I have my day all planned out, and a donut or a piece of pound cake doesn't fit into that plan. So stop trying to get me to eat a piece. I already want to eat a piece. I would step on your face to get to that cake. But I cannot have a piece. My health is more important than that delicious cake. So back the fuck off.
And thus endeth the rant against mine enemy.
Once I make some progress on the challenge, I'll post again. Progress is going to be made soon. Because I am awesome and I am going to beat this thing.
2 comments:
Nothing but love and support for you girl!
Food is not illegal and not socially unacceptable. I think it's hard for some people to come to grips with how destructive a seeming benign substance like cake and sweets can be to people who struggle food addictions.
Beyond that...it's sad that someone is trying to validate themselves by hurting you in this way. Obviously this person is insecure and threatened by who you are now and really doesn't want to encounter a more victorious Nena! Bless their hearts...their fear will be realized. You ARE becoming victorious!
Fuck the motherfuckers. I know they don't get it, but it still pisses me off. Let your inner anger fuel your passion to overcome this. Try to visualize their poor pancreases (pancrei?) shooting out insulin as fast as they can, their poor receptors shot and burdened and damaged, their cells fat and full and sick with sugar. That help??
Love you big....xoxoxo
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